The Secrets Under The Tree

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2011-02-25T13:43:00.002+11:00

Hello i'm back again. :)

A lot of things have been happening to my life lately, where do i start?

Here we go…

Family

My brother has been regularly undergoing dialysis since December 2010. I thought he would grow up after all the things that have happened to him, but how disappoints us. He still remains the same. He acts likes a 10 years old child! Playing computer games and often going to the cinema to watch movies. Damn it! >.< He didn’t think at all when he spent all this money. He doesn’t worry about anything! He can’t work! He doesn’t have any income and he still owes a few banks for credit card payments! Maybe he did it purposely, so that we won’t worry about him. This CNY I went back to Malaysia. My mum and dad look older than before because of him! My mum and dad cry because of him! He didn’t even know and still blame on us! He didn’t think why his health condition will turn bad? He doesn’t think about why we do so many things for him! It is just because we love him! Can’t you just appreciate what we did for you? T.T

Friendship

One of my closest friends that I’ve always trusted backstabbed me. She acts like an Angel in front of everyone, but actually she is a Devil behind you! Maybe I shouldn’t say that, maybe I’m the only one she ever did this to. I really don’t know what’s wrong with her! She was such a close friend and then one day completely changed with no apparent reason. I don’t know what I did that made her suddenly turn 180°. She said something that’s not true at all, behind my back to my friend! I tried to call her but she never answered my phone call and didn’t return my call. I texted her but she never replied! We used to be very close but now everything has changed. Even when we met each other, we didn’t talk more that 5 sentences at all. Luckily I still have a small handful of awesome friends who I know for a fact will show up in a snow storm driving 2 hours into the middle of nowhere to bust me out of a bad situation. Treat people like you want to be treated though. If you aren’t going to be there for them through hardships, why should they be there for you?

Heartrending

2011-01-14T15:16:00.003+11:00

Recently, there are a few friends told me that their family member gets sick, me too. I just talked to an old friend. Just knew that his mother gets sick and she is going to blind soon. Why? Diabetes!!! I feel sorry to hear that and I really feel bad for him because he doesn’t know what to do, me too. Another friend's brother got minor stroke because of diabetes. My brother starts to do dialysis because of diabetes too.

I’m so far away from home, I can’t do anything but even I were home I also don’t know what to do. The only thing that I know what I can do is do not let my parents worry about me. Currently my parents need to put full attention on my brother due to his sickness. Hopefully, through this incident my brother will grow up and also will take good care himself. Please do not wait until something happen that will make him regret forever only he decided to change. That will be too late.

2 days ago one I got sorrowful news from my high school classmate. She told me that one of my high school classmates passed away because of car accident. When I heard the news I felt so sad. Its just freaked me out. I just met him last year during CNY. I talked to him and we said that we will keep in touch. Who knows… May he rest in peace... (T.T)

Life is short, we must appreciate what we have now.

2011

2011-01-13T10:28:00.008+11:00

Happy New Year! Happy 2011! New Year New Life! All bad things already over and all good things coming soon! :)

Just realized is already 2011! hehe... I’ve only updated few blogs last year. :P

I wonder why other people have a lot of things to update in their blog but for me i really don't know what to update! It takes me ages to update a blog. wuakaka! It makes me feel ashamed.

Ok. I will try my best to update my blog more often. It’s really needs my endurance and effort on it. Maria keeps asking me to update my blog so that my English will improve through here. I think now she had run out of effort to ask me update my blog. haha...

On the other hand, I’ve also addicted to the songs that sang by Maria Mena, I’m in Love and It must have been love. I just fell in love to her voice. She has a great voice, her voice is so beautiful, and she is amazing. The songs that sang by her are full of emotional and meaningful. You guys can have a try, see whether you guys will fall in love to her song or not! :) Maybe it’s just my cup of tea. Haha…. XD

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2010-08-18T08:57:00.003+10:00

I have done what I suppose to do! Everything had come to an end. When you decided to press the button, you have made the decision. You are the one who choose to end up like this!

Never expect this kind of things will happen to me. It felt horrible to get back to the screen. The one I most trusted betray me. The screen keep replay in my mind. T__T

Why my relationships get worse to worst? Is this my karma? Is this my fault? There is only one word to describe my feeling now “SPEECHLESS”!

Will loneliness drive someone insane? Will loneliness drive someone become thoughtless? I think the worst thing had happen to me now. Hope that all bad things that happen to me had come to an end.

Start my new day today! Wish myself good luck and all the best! :)

Nam Myo Ho Ren Ge Kyo~

Geram!!!

2010-03-30T14:52:00.010+11:00

Recently I'm looking for job, I think i'm going jobless soon. I need to get a job ASAP! If not i'm going to die!!! My crazy boss told me the same things everyday? you have to give bla bla bla pressure! you have to ask bla bla bla to get new projects! If not our company not going to continue. He told me this thousand times!!!! Please stop telling me all this!! i'm hate to hear all the reasons that you gave us. 1 word! BORE!!!! Can you please take your own responsibility?? If you don't want to fight for the company then who will? The company is yours! not mine!!! i only can to the account for you!!! Please do what you should do instead of keep pushing all the things for other people. Things never come so easy! Don't expect everyone will fight for you without your own endeavour. I'm 100% sure my boss doesn't understand the meaning of "Give and Take"!!! He always want us to "GIVE" and he is the one who always "TAKE"! The most overstep thing was he always paid my colleague which is local people on time instead of my friend and I!!! Damn him!!! When i saw him i still need to smile with him! haiz... This is the different between employer and employees!!! Customers are always RIGHT!!! Boss also always RIGHT!!! i want my SALARY!!!!!! >.<>

My Favourite 100 things

2010-03-24T11:35:00.018+11:00

After read Maria and Phyllis blog, I feel the urge to list down my favourite 100 things too. :) But i'm not sure how long i will take to update this. :p will let you know once i finish. now is 11.33am 24/3/2010. Maybe i'll take few days to think. hehe... Same like maria always say me "i take ages to post a blog". hehe...
Here is my favourite 100 things! Don't fall asleep ya when you read! :)
Erm... so hard to think the first one... hehe...

Finally...

1. Swimming
2. Laugh loudly
3. Cook something i like to eat
4. Dreaming
5. Fishing
6. Jogging
7. Movies espeacially horror movie! :D
8. Hang out with friends
9. Doing nothing ( Is this considered 1 of my favourite thing?:p)
10. Eating
11. My Friends 12. My family 13. Appear Offline on MSN (hehe... lazy to chat)
14. Share my experiences with my friends
15. numbers
16. Sunflower
17. White Rose
18. Photography
19. Working
20. Traveling
21. Ice Cream
22. Pillow talks
23. watching people dancing
24. accompanied by friend
25. teasing my best friend :p
26. Call Daphne
27. helping people
28. Fastiduous
29. Penang Laksa
30. Lok Lok
31. Byan's nasi lemak
32. Singing
33. My aunty cookings
34. Soup
35. Banana
36. Go home! hehe...
37. Drive as fast as i can! (only when i'm mad)
38. Go shopping with my best friends in malaysia.
39. Suprises
40. stalking people on facebook
41. always having deep breath while doing homework
42. listen music
43. cheese tart
44. Rojak
45. Steamboat
46. Almond
47. Crabs
48. Prawns
49. Travelling with my sister
50. like to eat something sweet
51. My bed in Malaysia
52. swearing!! hehe... :p
53. look at older photos that revive my memory 54. accompany my mum doing her things
55. helping my mum doing her things always when i hang out with mum
56. being pampered
57. being helpful
58. Penang
59. gossiping with my best friends
60. drive my sister and my best friends around
61. Yustini hehe...
62. Asking questions
63. the past sleepovers with Maria and SinHong
64. Quarrel with my best buddy- DAPHNE my best buddy ever!! :p65. tell Daphne off during her ears feel itchy! haha... ( She likes to make me angry though)
66. Colorful bedsheets
67. The number of 76
68. McD
69. Bacon and Egg70. Sausages
71. neat and tidy
72. being naughty73. Typing
74. Rock Deli's Honey Soy Chips
75. Crunchy Nut
76. Having Funs77. Receiving parcel
78. the smell of raining in Malaysia
79. Penang Prawn Noodle
80. The Wanton Mee near my house
81. Luo Han Guo
82. Milo Ice83. Teh Halia
84. Roti Bawang
85. Nasi Kandar
86. Ice Chocolate
87. loh bak
88. call daphne without talking when i'm sad. ( p/s: she knew that i'm crying) :) Thanks...89. miss my friends and family when I'm in Australia
90. Weekends and Public holidays
91. learn new things
92. Woolies
93. admire of people that i feel they are so clever.
94. My home
95. My room in Malaysia.
96. having a walk with Maria when i'm not happy.
97. Sunny Day
98. Ponteng when during High School :p
99. Chatting with my sister
100. My colorful life

Phew~ @.@ Finally finish! Guess what is the time now? 3.45pm 24/3/2010

Quite fun to work out my favourite 100 things. Actually i didnt spend that much of time to think. No need to work meh? hehe... Bye...

Support and Encourage

2010-03-24T11:13:00.000+11:00

Actually i would like to update something more interesting and something that will make people feels happy after reading my blog. Unfortunately, i really don't know how to express my happiness instead of my sadness.

Recently i kept dream of my friends and family in Malaysia. Is this the sign that show me i'm not happy living in Australia? Honestly, I miss home, I miss every things and people in Malaysia. People won't know this kind of feelings if they not away from their own country or home.

I have met Tae yesterday for a chanting session. Actually i was struggling with my negative life state such as relationship, career and financial problems. Thanks Tae giving her support and encourage and also chant together with me (Actually I were desperately need that) . Thanks for everything you did for me. Much appreciate! I really have had a great time yesterday. Now i feel I'm encouraged and supported. I'm looking forward for our 2nd meeting on next Monday.

Is he the one?

2010-03-19T21:26:00.001+11:00

Sometimes i really doubt is he the one? I knew no one is perfect even myself. I saw maria wrote in her blog " when you use one finger point to someone four fingers is pointing yourself!" so i started to doubt.... Is it my fault? sigh... :(

Every time quarrel will be my fault! because of my stinginess, arbitrariness, and etc. He always think he's the one conceding whenever there's an argument. Did he know actually I'm the one who always concede? i can continue the argument if i want to! why i want to stop the argument? Why i just kept quite? Because i want this relationship to be lasting! I don't want to argue anymore! I'm so tired! You know sometimes i would rather remain single! Did he know all these? The answer was he didn't know! Anyone can teach me what should i? Am i betraying myself or lying myself or persuading myself that i still love him or it is the truth? i'm so confuse! sigh... :'(

Every time after argue he will tell me "i will change! I will change! Believe me! give me a chance" ok! i believe you!I'll give you a chance. But how long do you want me to give you? 1 yr? 2 yrs? 3 yrs? I understand my personality! i dont have that endurance. I'm not sure how long our relationship will last. Every time argue i'll ask myself are you the one that i will be with forever? If i have time machine i will see who is the one! I'm so tired of being in a relationship. Can i just run away? hehe... Not again!!! ;P

2nd day back to Hobart

2009-06-28T16:25:00.000+10:00

Ahhhhhhhh! I AM SO BORING!!! Trying to shout as loud as i can, but afraid that will frighten other people! sigh... finally i shout at here! use blog to release my bore! I'm doing nothing whole day today! i slept til 11.30am! Damn! open my eyes nothing to do! lazy to vacuum my room! feel so cold! why suddenly i feel the time pass so slow! When i went back to Malaysia the time flies! It's totally different! Winter make people feel so cold and lonely! Why? Is't because i have nobody here? Somemore Maria is not around! Why so hard to find someone accompany me? The people i wish to hang around is not here! The people i wish to be together is not mine! The people who i wish to stay far away are all here! ahhhhhhhh! No money! No job! No friends! I got nothing! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Kisiao!!!!

I'm Back!

2009-04-04T17:04:00.000+11:00

Hi everyone! I'm back! Have been long long time didn't update my blog. Is time to get it update again. Hehe... Almost half year I didn't update my blog, getting lazy and lazy. Actually I'm now attending an English Lesson; I need to pay the penalty fees instead of tuition fees once i speak Mandarin! Whose idea is this? Wong Qin Maria la! So money face! Just as her to help me whoknos she said i need to pay for penalty! Sigh... Some more nowadays i don't have sponsorship anymore! hehe... Just kidding la! No choice la... Who ask my English so bad and need to use this method to force myself to im my English! Haiz... So bad! Sometimes I really envy to those people that communicate with others using fluent English. Why i can't like them? I wish one day i can same like them.

Now i'm starting to read novel, newspaper everyday. Actually it is quite interesting! I don't have this kind of feelinf before. I hope that i can improve my English as soon as possible. I know it will be very hard for me, but i will try my best! Recently i'm looking for accounting job and every company's requirement are same. They want to hire a staff with very good English. I have no choice, i leave in Western Country! I need to follow their culture, if i refuse to learn i will get nothing! A Chinese phrase: "活到老学到老"! I believe i can do it! No matter how i believe I can find a job that related to my studies in Tasmania. One person got pressure only can push them to do better. Now i'm on my way! I will prove that i can do it! I cannot be like a coward for whole life! I wan to be stronger! All my friend, wish me good luck la! :)

Sad...

2008-11-04T23:58:00.000+11:00

Have been long time didn't update my blog... I'm having exam now. Just finished my major subject examination today-Accounting Theory. The ever hated subject i had in my life even though i'm so hate about economy subject! Shit!

So sad... i really don't know i can pass this paper or not. I just simply wrote what i knew. so sad...... studied for so many days but still don't how to do. Really wasted Maria and Byan time to teach me. How? tell me what to do now? If i didn't pass this subject then i can't graduate this semester! I'll waste my mum money to come over here purposely for attending my graduation. sigh... the most important is maria also can attend my graduation... sad! sad! sad! nothing i can say! hopefully i can pass this subject! hopefully the lecturer will be generous and push me over the line.

I don't want to retake this subject!!!!! I want to graduate!!!! :(

Great Brunch!

2008-08-30T23:22:00.000+10:00

First of all! Thank You Aaron!

hehe... so formal... hehe... Today i'm having a great brunch! Aaron wake up early to cook for 6 of us. so touching... *shedding tears* This is my brunch! It looks yummy, doesn't it?
Can you find what is the different between my brunch and others?
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Hint: Not the Food!
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Answer: The ROSE
I got a BLOOMING ROSE!
Make a guess why i got a blooming one?
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MARIA SAID: RESPECT FOR OLDER wo...!
Maria Don't forget you also will get older one day! blek!:p

Kampung girl! So horrible! Don't ask me walk out like this! I'll faint!

ROSE attack!

My New Pet - Sea Monkey!

2008-08-30T22:03:00.000+10:00

I decided to go city to sign iphone plan at optus on Thursday. Who knows the ipone out of stock! Sigh! A bit disappointed! L The iphone really attracts me. I’m that kind of person who really doesn’t like to change handphone, because I’m not expert in mobile technology. Therefore, when my friend ask me to go sign one I refuse him. Who knows one day I went out with a friend, she borrow me her iphone. *Slap myself* Gosh! So cool man! I love it so much…! Then I decided to sign iphone plan also. Hehe... I have put my name in the waiting lists of iphone. So… I’ll get my iphone probably on next week. Haha…

After that I’m thinking to go home. When I passed by a shop, name Australian Geographic, I saw a worm farming display at the shop so, I turn back walked into the shop to have a looked. Suddenly “Sea-Monkey” brought to my mind. I’m looking for sea-monkey, maybe I can find it in the shop. Hooray! *The Lord was helping me!* I found it! $19.95 a starter kit, erm… quite expensive, but I also decided to buy it. Hehe… Do you heard before sea-monkey? It is a kind of shrimp. Actually before that I'm thinking to bid online, but it just sells in US ebay! Now no need to bid! I got it! Yeay!

Cannot wait to see them growing... It will train my endurance! hehe...

Pre-posting exam result

2008-07-09T08:28:00.000+10:00

The time now is 8.30am, another half an hour my result will release. I can feel my heart beating so hard and fast... Some more I can't find anyone to chat in my MSN list. I'm so nervous... So I'm deciding to post my blog. Typing out what I'm thinking. What result am I expected? How to make me calm down? Oh NOoOOOOoooooo! My brain stuck!!!! I'm not greedy, I only want to pass all the subjects I took and make sure I can graduate on this coming December. Arrrgggghhhh! Few more minutes to go! few more minutes to go! I'm going crazy!!!!!!!!Really hope that I can pass all!!! haiz.... *slap myself* Asking myself don't think too much! Calm down! but I can't! sigh... Ok! Ok! Isn't it I'm supposed to think where to celebrate after I get the result? hehe... I'm going to eat "BIG MEAL"!!! erm.... aiya... Don't know la... I only know how to eat nia.... hehe... Yea!! I know! I'm going to Bruny Island. Help!!!!!! My hands are so cold right now. ahhhhhhhhhhhh! Ok la. Wait for my GOOD NEWS! Byeeeeeeee!

Blood donation

2008-06-29T00:16:00.000+10:00

This is the third times I donated blood in Australia, this also my first time took photos when donating blood. Honestly, I like to take photos because I'm a forgetter. Photos can remind me a lot of things. If I want to forget something or someone is very easy. I can just delete my photos then i will forget. Don't know this is good for me or bad? I have taken a lot of photos in Australia so those photos can let me remember what things I have done in Australia. I didn't do anything bad in Australia, I'm helping people. *winks* ;)

This photo seems like someone force me smile... Actually no one forced me, just I'm forcing Lieng Weng took photos for me. *LOL*

He is Michael. I ask him to donate blood together. He is first time to donate blood. As you can see he is so happy while donating his blood.

He is William. He also first time to donate blood. but pity him... Can you see that his left hand elbow have been tie up? I'm not sure that the guy who tried to get William blood is trainee or professional. I think he stabs the needle into William hand about 3 times, but he couldn't find his vein. After that he asks another staff to help him to do it for William. Don't know whether William will get scare or not... He really have a bad experience...

Finally we all done... Yahoo!!!!

Huskies' Picnic

2008-06-28T22:33:00.000+10:00

Today I went to THE NAB Huskies' Picnic at St David's Park. It was the biggest event of Hobart's Antarctic Midwinter Festival, it organise once a year. I have missed it last year, so this year I won't be asleep as a switch, so I woke up early in the morning. *titter*
Post some photos let you guys enjoy it!
He said "I'm the King of the Samoyeds!" haha... Can you see how smooth the fur is? He is so pretty...

The samoyeds' babies... See! How cute they are! ;)

All of the kids queue in the line waiting for their turn to hold the baby samoyeds. I'm also in the line, but no one bother me! Finally, i gave up... :(

Look at her! How clever she is? Her name is angel. She shakes hand with me... but seem like not a professional taking this photos. Why it couldn't see my face? *shed tears*

Hmm... This photo is nice! Nice angle! *thumbs up* although got a bit blur... but I like it! *wink*

The huskies' picnic attracted a lot of people. For those who didn't go for this year, you can go on next year. This photos is to prove I didn't cheat you. *wink* All the peoples in the photos walked toward The Taiko Drummers.

The Taiko Drummers attracted a lot of audience. As you can see many people from previous photo is watching their performance.

This entitle as face art. This guy provides a professional and efficient face painting for many kids. All of the kids love it. Can you imagine how come the kid can sit so quietly... You can learn some technique from him if your son/daughter is hyperactive. *LOL*This is chocolate swirl cake. I baked it by myself oh... But got Maria helped me! *winks* Wish to eat it, but I need to bring it to SGI meeting tomorrow. sigh... Hungry lo....

Anyway, i really have a lot of activities on my holidays. i didn't waste any time any minutes for my holidays. *winks*

Holidays!~

2008-06-25T22:18:00.000+10:00

Hi... Everyone! I'm backkkkk.... hehe... didn’t update my blog for ages. Actually I’m would like to update my blog everyday, but ho… I’m too busy ma… haha…
Lazy + Busy = Crazy!!! *cold sweat*
Busy because of exam lor... *roll my eyes* Real one leh... My laptop segregated with me started from study week until end of my exam.* Thumbs-up! :)* Lazy because of i'm lazy lor... haha... Truly if I can update my blog in spending few minutes time sure I will update everyday, instead of write a sentence spending few minutes and using whole day to post a blog.*Thumbs-down :(*

This was my first birthday cake on 17/6/08, 1a.m.. Got it from my lovely housemates- Maria, Bee Yan and Lieng Weng. Wasn't it looked nice and yummy? IT WAS!!! My birthday cake wo... Of course nice... *Titter* Everybody don't curious why the name on the cake was Tan Kah Boon but not Tan Chea Wern or Carmen. It was my "Teow Chiew" name, I wonder why Maria and Lieng Weng like to call me "Tan Kah Boon"?? @.@ Weird isn't it? Same like boy name! Anyway I like it cause it was my name! *LOL*This was my Third birthday cake on 17/6/08, 11pm. Got it from Andy, Wan Jin and Wai Kean. I got this cake when i came back from IS builiding. It was late of the night, I still remember that time I was really tired and stress, because I will sit for auditing exam on the next day. After I saw the cake suddenly i feel that my mood become better. Cause the cartoon on the cake keep smiling. I know the cake is for children but i think that time i really need it... :)
The second birthday cake i haven't get the photo from my friend. It was celebrating in IS building. Su Ying and Sun brought me that cake. You will become Energetic after you eat it! Because it was extremely sour!!! They afraid I will fall sleep when I study, so purposely brought me a sour cake. *titter, joking la...*
Buddies! Thanks for the cake.....

This is the "earliest" Birthday card i received. This card from Fiona. I was very suprised cause I received it during my third exam paper. This was the second birthday cards i received. This cards DIY by my sister. Cool isn't it? This is the biggest card i ever had. This was from my dearest Jason lo... He courier this present for me. i received it on my birthday. But not the right time! cause i was very sad on that day... Too stress... So after finished my exam only I looked at the stuffs that he posted for me. Thanks dear....

This is the present i got it from my housemate. Actually Maria and Byan want to give me suprised on my birthday. So they bring it to IS building for me. They planned to put it in my bag when i'm not around. Who knows "Puah Kang Tao"! haha... They put it when I want to fetch my friend back home who knows i turn back to take proxy card. so... oh oo... i saw it...! hehe... after that Maria asked me to pretend nothing happen! haha...

Lets move into my holidays... My holidays start from 18/6/08 4:15pm. Yeah...! After exam of course i'm going to have crazy holidays. Burny Island is my priority travel industry sites on this holiday. But until now still don't have any news from my friends yet. Don't know whether this holiday I can reach there or not. Originally, I’m planned to go with Byan, Lieng Weng & Maria. Who knows Byan already went back to Malaysia, Maria already went there just before the exam and Lieng Weng is randomly one. But impossible that I go there with Lieng Weng ma… 2 persons only wo… only got 1 word to describe ‘Sianz’! so now I’m waiting for another gang of my friends. Hehe… Hope that I can go there on this holiday.
Here comes some photos i took on this few days

His name is Chua Der Tzer, We call him Chua. Celebrating Eeyi's and his birthday at Jonathan's house. He really same like my brother! so Big! but he is more gentle than my elder brother! *LOL*

I love Ice-Cream... Mmmm....muackssssssss!

say Cheeseeee... Need to show out all of my teeth! Night view in Salamanca.

This photo i took it on Saturday. I'm thinking to try new food in Salamanca Market so i bought this. This was "Crepes" came with ham and cheese. Yummy!~ You should try it...

A Huge Teddy bear in Salamanca Market. So cute... I'm not sure what was the teddy bear doing in Salamanca market. Who cares? I just want to take photo with the teddy bear. haha...

This is a piano display in Hutchin College. Made by iron. It looks unique....

That's it...! PHew! finally finish! I use 2 days to post this blog!!! -.-"

I miss McD so much.......

2008-05-19T20:04:00.000+10:00

Just finish my dinner. Make a guess what I had my dinner for today? *grin*
I cooked 2 packets of instant noodles with 3 eggs and pok choy. Don’t get shock! I’m sharing the noodles with Byan and Lieng Weng. After finished the noodles, me and byan felt that our stomach still not being filled, so we decided go to McD. Yeah! *claps* I miss McD so much…

Have been long time I didn’t go to McD. Usually when I was in Malaysia I went to McD twice a week or more. Sigh… My sister and I was such a McD freak! WE LOVE McD! ;) Honestly, Malaysia McD is nicer than Australia. Especially the Mc Chicken. Emmm…. *drool* So yummy… *smack myself* self-complacence after came back from McD.

Okay better get back to study! Byeeeeeeeee!

Moodiness

2008-04-27T00:05:00.000+10:00

Trying to wake up at 12pm today, end up I woke up at 9am and lied on my bed until 11.30am. felt bored today… nothing to do… actually not nothing to do just felt 'Boh' mood to do my things. Maybe miss someone too much... I miss you... really miss you... but what can I do? I only can chat with you in MSN, talked in phone, looked at your photos...

You always told me that envy of other people cause they all in couple. How about me? Have u ever think that I also feel the same like you? The only different between you and me was I didn’t tell you what I feel because I knew that we cannot change anything. Because you told me this is a trial for our relationship. But why you could say out something that hurt me? Did you think the consequences when you said out something? Did you think about my feeling? Maybe you will feel that what you had said was meaningless to you, but NOT me!

I’m really felt speechless… The pain in my heart was unable to express… I knew that it will be a tough way for us. But I can promise you that I’ll try my best to preserve our relationship unless you give up. I really miss the times when we have spent together. Really miss…

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2008-04-21T15:44:00.000+10:00

I have been busy for this few weeks. I think nearly 1 month I didn’t sign in into my blog, no doubt it had grow a lot of moulds here... @.@ I need to clean it up 1st! Aherm!!!
What have I done for this few weeks?Tests, assignments, presentations all came in ‘Twins”! 2 stupid tests, 2 stupid assignments, 2 stupid presentations! I’m so sick of it! Really wonders why we need to do all of this. Why not we just study then sit for the exam until end of the semester?
Look at the calendar! I only left home for 2 months! NO! NO! Is nearly 2 months… Sigh… only 2 months… But I feel that I have been left home for ages. Really miss my mum… Just now I called Ping Ting, ask her to visit my mum frequently, because I know that my mum was the only one that left home. Who knows, Ping Ting told me that my mum wanted to view my sister and my photos in friendster, suddenly I felt sore in my heart… I know she was lonely… I can feel that how horrible when the time she go back to the empty home… I hate that feeling! I think everyone hate those feelings too…
So I have decided to create a friendster account for her. Hehe…^.^ So that she can view our photos anytime when she likes. My mum is a SUPER MUM! Mum I miss you so much!

Taaaa daaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! My Super Mum!

You see! How cute is she? Naughty daughter 'Me' forced mum to act cute! Hehehehehe

Mum, I LOVE YOU!
Although I never say it out.

We took this photo to see who looks like mum more while waiting to go V-Home annual dinner.

Happy Family!~ We took this photo when Chinese New Year 2008! This is my family latest photo!

Memorable Photos~!

2008-03-14T18:14:00.000+11:00

Can you guys see a PIMPLE had grown on my NOSE??? It is so painful... T.T and my eyes was bloated like this @.@. GOSH!!!! Kua Tiuk Gui ahhhh( Hokkien)!!!!! Tang! Tang! Tang! Tang!

Doing Mask now. Hehe.... A mask a day, Keep the pimples away!!!! hehe.... >.-

OK. Let me introduce this guy. He is Jason Soong Ginn Suang. Honestly, he is my dear. hehe.... What is he doing? hehe... He was acting cute to make me happy during the Traffic Jam. Look at him! So Cuteeeeee! Haha.... He must be going crazy after reading this. Dear, Dear, Dear! Don't mad oo... Do you know that you are the lucky one? Cause i upload your photo on my blog. Hahaha... I miss you so much...

What Alphabeticle does it look like?

I LOVE

I took this photos when i was on my way walked to Uni on Wednesday morning. Look at this car. See how they advertising their product in Australia. You won't see a car like this in Malaysia. * I think* When i took this photos a caucasian looked at me curiously. Maybe he was thinking that i'm crazy or wierd cause took this car photo, but he never know that i never see a car like this before. hehe...

Volkswagen that carrying a EXTREMELY BIG RED BULL ENERGY DRINK.... Cool!!!

Yummy... Having our ice cream under the Terrible Hot Sun , with the cold strong wind. I'm freezzzzzing~!!!

Below the photos all I took at Mawson Place, Hobart.

Wish to be with you...

2008-03-07T19:17:00.000+11:00

I was supposed to feel happy when I heard your voice... Didn't know why I feel strange when I talked to you. Seemed like there's nothing I want to tell you when i had the chance to talk to you. but instead, prior to calling you I have plenty of things that i want to share with you.

Maybe PMS... Whatever... all i only know is that my temper now is not good. *kisiao!!!* i should blame that webcam la! Make me angry only. Thought that finally i can see you, who knows the webcam is not working! Keep loading and loading! Sigh... You told me that you could see your friend but why you couldn't see me? Unfortunately, my webcam also like that! Sigh... really 'Boh ian' nia... >.<

Some more, when I knew that you were finding someone to accompany you I felt very sad. I am sad because of I'm not around you when you need someone. I can't do anything because I'm very far away from you. :( I really hope that I can be there for you. I'm so sorry...

I miss you...miss the times that we've spent together..

Homesick!

2008-03-04T15:42:00.000+11:00

Have been long time didn't update my blog. i can see there are a lot of mouldsss here... hehe...
Being lazy to update my blog cause i have more interesting things to do when i was in Malaysia. haha... i have a really good excuse! ^.^ Aherm! I miss home...! I want to go home!T.T
I have been to Hobart around 9 days. hmm... i felt lonely when the first night reached here. The environment in Hobart is very different compare to Penang. Hobart is a small and serenity city and also you can feel the peacefulness here. Even you forget to lock the door, don’t worry that your things will get steal, instead in Penang. Sigh… Why? Why this will happen in Penang? Hopefully it will change…
Hey Guys! See properly! Only the ‘first’ night! Haha… I miss u guys honestly! I miss the time when we all hang out together. Thanks for gave me a memorable day… Of course I miss someone too… Don’t know what’s he doing now? Hope that he’s beside me now… *slap* STOP DREAMING! Hehe… I like dreaming instead of studying. OK, I’ll try to control myself.
Daphne will go to Singapore soon. Hope that she will get use to the environment there. Wish her will consolidate step by step in her career. DAPHNE, GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST! Wish myself too... hehe...^.^

:)

2007-11-11T04:24:00.000+11:00

Hello~! Every one do you know where am i now?
hehe... Yes! Yes! Yes! I'm back! I'm in Malaysia now! haha... i'm so excited and happy... haha...
Okay! I'm busy now! going to take bath! Byeeeeeee! ;)

Bad Luck

2007-11-05T22:14:00.000+11:00

Sigh.............. I'm really don't know what happen to me! God is fooling me! I lost my wallet today. Why this kind of thing always happen on me? I'm really hope the person who found my wallet will return it to me, I know is impossible but I really hope so! T.T

Another SAD incident!

2007-11-04T00:32:00.001+11:00

I LOST MY ANKLET! I LOST MY ANKLET! I LOST MY LOVELY ANKLET!
SAD!!! :(

Exam END!

2007-11-04T00:18:00.001+11:00

Have been long time didn't post my blog. Like what Maria said! She found mould in her blog and me as well. I'm having my exam, not I'm lazy to post. Today I have 1 good news and 1 bad news!

GOOD NEWS!
Hooray....! I have finished my last paper! I have finished my exam! No need to study already! I can enjoy my holidays! Yea!!! *clap my hands, like a monkey jumping around!*

BAD NEWS!
I didn't know how to do the exam questions. I needed to answer eight questions but I only know 3 questions that I was answered it in correctly. *crying, put one's finger in one's eye.*

I should feel happy after my exam isn't it? Before that I think I will very happy after finish my exam, but now I don't know what my feeling is, happy? sad? I only know that now I feel very very very tired. Actually the exam period I feel want to give up, but I know I can’t! I know I have to face it! Really hope that I will pass all my paper. God bless me!!! I already try my best.

I miss home so much! Every day I dream I was back home! I dream I was hanging out with my family and friends! Do you ever miss home so much like me? You will know the feeling once you leave home!

Never mind! I will be back soon!!!!!! hehe... :)

Last assignment! Mission Completed!!!

2007-10-14T16:55:00.000+11:00

Just completed my last assignment for this semester last night! It was so tough! I used almost 2 weeks to finish it. In the end, Maria was the person who finished MY assignment. *slap myself! Stupid gal! Maria who studying Pharmacy course helped me to do Financial Management assignment! Honestly, I’m trying so hard to do the assignment *beating my heart for saying that, but who knows the last few days on due only I know I did it wrongly! I really wanted to give up that time! I don’t want to pass up the assignment. Luckily Maria told me she will be my backup. Lastly Maria churns up her brain and helps me to finish it. Maria, thank you very much for helping me… @.@ Without you I believe that now I’m still seating on IS lab doing the ‘CRAP’ assignment!
Exam is coming soon. I only left 2 weeks to do my revision! I have 4 core subjects Accounting Information System, Management Accounting, Financial Management and Commercial transaction. Left 2 weeks for me to fight for the exam after that I will be FREE! No pressure, no exam, no worry, the most important thing is No Assignment! Haha… and I got freedom….. Hehehehe… I will wait til the day when I step foot on the airport floor. That’s mean I’m going home! Hehehehe…
Okay! I want to go home cook dinner already. Eng forget to eat her breakfast and lunch! Huiyoooo! No wonder she is so thin. NoT FAIR! Why they can forget to eat why I can’t? That’s why the sizes are different! Haha...

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement

2007-10-08T10:38:00.000+11:00

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08 October 2007

Happiness doesn't exist on the far side of distant mountains. It is within you, yourself. Not you, however, sitting in idle passivity. It is to be found in the vibrant dynamism of your own life as you struggle to challenge and overcome one obstacle after another, as you clamber up a perilous ridge in pursuit of that which lies beyond.

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement

2007-10-07T15:34:00.000+11:00

What will the future be like? No one knows the answer to that question. All we know is that the effects that will appear in the future are all contained in the causes that are made in the present. The important thing, therefore, is that we stand up and take action to achieve great objectives without allowing ourselves to be distracted or discouraged by immediate difficulties.

Life without Internet

2007-10-06T20:07:00.000+10:00

Finally i can post new stuff. hehe... My home internet was cut off on 1st of October. It was so boring without internet in this isolated island. Nothing can do at home... no internet! no phone! Wah! i'm gonna be crazy! So... Don't feel curious if i didn't online for so long. Luckily i just left few months to go. i'll be HOMEEEEE! hehe... *wink* so happy!! can't wait for that time come! i'm so excited! Home! Home! Home! Home! I love my home!!!! I miss my home so much!!!!!! muahahaha!!! I can't wait to see my family and friends!!!!
I think thats it for today. Don't know what else to write because too excited! haha...
I will update when got new thing happen to me. bye....

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement

2007-10-03T16:40:00.000+10:00

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement
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03 October 2007

No matter how wonderful our dreams, how noble our ideals, or how high our hopes, ultimately we need courage to make them a reality. Without action, it's as if they never existed.

Shopping & Blood Donation

2007-10-02T16:18:00.000+10:00

This morning I went to BigW to buy a dress. Who knows the dress stock hasn’t come in. Sigh... Is this the fate? Don’t wan to let me buy! I went to BigW for 2 times but still couldn't get the dress. I like it so much... >.<
After that I went to city to buy some Red Cross stuff for my Red Cross freak friend->ERIC! When I reached the Red Cross head quarter I saw a big sign 'SHOP'. I was so happy I thought I have found the shop that sell red cross stuff. Who knows the things they sell were second hand things! aiya... Really make me dizzy! So I went to the reception counter to ask the receptionist. Where can I get the souvenirs from Australian Red Cross? The receptionist gave me stickers, pen, magnet and wristband. Actually I want to buy the T-shirt, first-aid handbook something like that. hehe... never mind... that also souvenirs. The unexpected souvenirs! hehe...
The girl ask me go to the 1st floor ask about the first-aid handbook. I went round the building and I saw the blood donation department. Then Lieng Weng asked me “Do you want to donate blood?” *his trying to tease me* I straight answer him YES! Let’s GO! Lieng Weng got shock! He asked me “Are you sure you want to donate your blood?” Yea!!!!!!!
I went to the counter and asked for the donation. Then I asked Lieng Weng to donate blood together. Do you know what his responded? NO!!!!! Is very painful! I afraid! GOSH…! A “Gentleman” afraid of injection! Lieng Weng ah… I want pengsan lo… really speechless!
Although today I couldn’t get the dress that I wanted to buy but I have done something meaningful for the community. 俗语说：好心又好报嘛！哈哈！I'm not greedy! I just hope that I can PASS all my paper. hehe... :)

Hurray, Hurray, Hurrayyyy!!!

2007-09-27T15:08:00.000+10:00

Phew~! Just pass my most horrible week. Recently I haven't been posting stuff because rather busy with a lot of things. Handed assignment, presentation and sat 2 tests. Although still have 2 assignments left but I’m really feel relax after the commercial transaction presentation and test. This subject really makes me crazy! Because need to memorize a lot of things. Luckily I have met a guy. Clark! Thanks a lot! He is so kind. He really helps me a lot. He passed me all the information that he had. Without his information I think I couldn't sit for the test. Because it's too much things need to memorize. Hehe… I am a forgetter. This is also 1 of the thing that I most worry. Because I need to memorize a lot of things when exam.

Okay! Let me tell you the process of my presentation. Wow! I couldn’t sleep last night because feel panic. Hehe… Boh Loh Yiong! (hokkien) I turned left and right on my bed, I think after few hours I felt sleep. Gosh! Do you know what I had dreamed? I dreamed I was in class to do my presentation. In the dream I was very nervous and the worst thing was I forget what I want to present. That was so horrible. I woke up at 8am today and my heart started to beat so hard. I prepared the summary that I’m going to distribute to my classmates, checked for everything that I need to bring. Lastly, I changed my war suit! * jitter *

When I reached commerce building I ran to the office and borrowed the projector. After that I rush into the classroom.*breathless* rushing here and there… After everything was set up I distribute the summary for my classmates. Here its come i start to do my presentation. "Good afternoon everyone..." my voice is too soft! Adjust my voice to become louder! hehe... "I'm Carmen tan.. *Blinking of eyes* That's all for my presentation today!" Everyone were clapping their hands and my tutor said Good! Excellent! hmm... I'm acting very natural when I present, but actually I'm very scare. hehe... Hope that i was succeed to cheat everyone but not myself. And the accurate answer whether my presentation good or not I'll know on next week 4/10/07. I hope that I can get good result, because I have spent a lot of time in this assignment.

After my presentation I walked down to Uni centre to sit my commercial transaction test. Waiting for an hour to sit my test, between the free time i continued to do my revision.When the lecturer start to distribute the test paper, I looked at the question slinkingly. Actually we are not allow look at the question before the test. OMG!!! The question I saw I don't know how to do! *Panic* How? How? Find the answer quickly from my notes. Who knows i didn't bring the textbook so i called my friend to check the answer. Luckily she found the answer and tell me. hehe... Although it just only 1 question, at least i got 1 answer sure correct. haha...

*You can start to do the questions now*

I started to do the questions. Luckily half of the questions i studied before. Whose contribute the most? Of course is ME la! No la... Is CLARK la...!!! He got me the pass year paper. Half of the questions repeated from the pass year paper. So I'm 100% sure that I will pass this test.

I have passed my busy week just like that... I give myself 2 days holiday. Then start my another assignment again. Sigh... I really hate assignment! I really don't know until when only I can stop saying this sentence "I HATE ASSIGNMENT!!!!" haha...

ANDREW~

2007-09-15T01:44:00.000+10:00

Andrew. 23. Going to 24. Male. Single. Chinese. Malaysian. Non-smoker. Football freak. Talkative. Hardworking. Responsible. Reliable.

He likes to hang out with friends and make new friends (especially gals). He is extremely desperate to find a girl friend. Gals don't get shock. He is not a playboy I can swear that he is a good guy. He just a little bit worry about that he cannot find a girl friend. When people get to a certain age they start to think about their future life, their future wife, and etc. So therefore i'm here to introduce you this desperate guy who is seeking his beloved. If interested please contact 012-#######. First come first serve basis. hehe...

Here he come tang tang tang tang! The photo of Andrew~!

Unlucky day...

2007-09-15T00:53:00.000+10:00

Today is my unlucky day! Last night Seok Eng (SE), Lieng Weng (LW) and I had plan to visit Cadbury Factory. So today i need to wake up early and prepare breakfast for SE and LW. We planned to have our breakfast at 10am afterthat we will go to commerce building to take our test paper and pass up assignment. Who knows LW cannot wake up and let us wait until 11am only leave home.

We start our journey to Cadbury factory at 12.45pm. go there we need to spend an hour. We affraid that we can't get in time because the last tour at 1.30pm. But I insisted to go because we already spent the bus fair and we got nothing to do also. we sat an hour on the bus and i felt headached and dizzied. Because the bus have stopped for every stop. When we reach there that time was 1.45pm. We run to the counter and asked for the tour, the receptionist told us the tour was fully booked until Monday. Gosh!!! My arse felt numbness! Who knows she told us FULLY BOOKED! *show the whites of eye* The receptionist saw us looked disappointed then she gave us each person 2 pieces of chocolate. Fine! Forgive you! hehe...

We rushed back to the bus station again. Luckily the bus haven't left. Then we keep on our planned. we went to A1 fruit market to buy some vegies and fruits. Wow! Damn heavy! Bought a lot of apples. 'Boh pian' la... we so sayang Maria ho... hehe... She will understand what i say. haha... After taken our lunch we wanted to go back. Who knows heavy rain! haiz... need to wait until the rain stop only can go back. When we reached home already 5pm! Super tired...
'Boh ian' to the Cadbury factory! sigh...

Mid-Sem break...

2007-09-10T14:37:00.000+10:00

I have done nothing for this mid-sem break, just left some photos and memories.

Lieng Weng and Maria were acting Hip Hop at my room. Because everyone was too free and nothing to do. haha...

I'm working now, don't disturb me! If not i'm going to knock you. hehe...

Nice grass for us to take photo. lt's so green and clean. I think I couldn't find this at my hometown.

Wow! "Charlies Angels" huh! Wasn't it looks same? But just the shadows. Hehe...

In the huge church without furniture, roof, everything...

The End!!! Byeeeeeeee

Give & Take

2007-09-09T00:05:00.000+10:00

I believed on luck. Meet friends also need some luck. If your luck is good then you will meet nice people, when your luck is bad you will meet bad people. Me... 99:1! mean I have met both but i'm very lucky 99% of people i met is nice and became my friends and it is perfectly worth to remembering instead of the remaining 1% is my 'passing traveller' it is well... KANASAI!!! em... Actually i'm a forgetter. I already forget the kanasai people. But I believed that you will get back the same thing from how you treat people just maybe not from the same person on you hope to get back. Because we cannot expect to get back the same thing that you have done to that person. Isn't it 5 fingers also in different length, rite...? I assure that one people must be initiative than another. So appreciate the people that care so much about you. Maybe they just around you but you never notice them.

Bored!!!!!!!!

2007-09-06T22:51:00.001+10:00

Help! i'm so boring! Homesick! Coming again PMS! *whoop*

No mood!!!!!!!!!!!

i have stopped writing my blog for few days, now going to start again. hehe... i'm having my mid-semester break now so felt lazy to write my blog. Because my life was so bored and nothing interesting for me to post too. My holidays almost finish only left 3 days. After my break i have a test, presentation and assignment due. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh!
sigh... Why my life feel so bored? asignment! exam! test! make me crazy!!! What can i do to make my life more interesting?

... :( i miss my home, i miss my home, i miss my home.........

OMG!!! No cakes! No chocolate! No donuts!

2007-09-01T22:18:00.000+10:00

I have signed a 'small' agreement with my dear 'MARIA'! Start from 1st of September 2007 we are going to be on diet! NO MORE CAKES, CHOCOLATE, DONUTS! Besides, we got no supper no extra junk food after meal. If one of us breaks the rule, then we will have the curse become a Fatty girl. Sigh... I have no choice... because after I came to Tassie i have gained my weight from 56kg to 62kg! GOSH!!!!!!!!! I need to stop this if not I'll become a FAT FAT gal! I don't want to become a 'TEAPOT'! No doubt, I sure lose this because the foods I have listed down all were my favorite foods in Tassie and the main thing was I'm a food freak. *whimper* Whereas, endurance of Maria was extremely fabulous! Sigh… miserable! *smack myself* Carmen! Carmen! You cannot lose this! If you break the rule, you will become a teapot! You need to sober up! かんばって！

Recently, I have started to go Gym, play badminton, yoga and go to the exercise classes such as Aerobox, Step strategies, Intermediate and Belly Dancing, but most of the time I didn't go to the belly dancing because I feel that I didn’t sweat a lot. I went to play badminton yesterday and today morning. Now my butt and leg were very painful seems like a disable person when I walked. Maybe because of this condition plus inadequate of slept, my mood was unstable. Maria can feel that too. Suddenly feel happy and suddenly feel angry. Haha… Crazy fellow! Maybe PMS! Haha… Ok! Going to watch movie! But not in the cinema is in my laptop. Byesssssssssssssssssssss….

Let u guys see my agreement! haha….

It was just a simply promissory note! Maybe you don't understand what it means but we both know. It's between YOU and ME! This is our agreement! haha!

I got 9 marks!!! Hahahaha!!!!!

2007-09-01T01:11:00.000+10:00

Wow!!! I got 9 marks!!!!!!! Yea!!!!!!!!!! I got 9 marks out of 10 marks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!! Can u feel how happy was I?????????? hahahahha..... I’m getting crazily!!!! hahaha....!!!!! OKOK! Serious! This is my Commercial Transaction Assignmet (Business Law). I get 9 marks out of 10 marks! haha.... I never imagine that I can get this mark! At here I need to Thanks to Ah Hong, Maria, Wan Jin, Clark, the Librarian at Law Library and MEEEEEEEEEE. haha.... without them I wouldn't got such high marks.

OK! Now I'm going to tell you the whole story when I went to take my assignment. I have my law lecture on Thursday 30/8/07 at 2pm also tutorial at 12pm. When i finished my tutorial i went to see my tutor to ask for my assignment. She told me I'll get my assignment back on the lecture. When I attended my lecture the lecturer came with whole class assignments. She started to divide the assignments into Alphabetical followed by our last name. After divided she asked us to search for it.

Ok! I went to ‘T’ section and searched for my assignment. Eh!!! Never mind! I went to ‘C’ section. Eh!!! *scratch my head* Where is my assignment????? That time I was so nervous because I afraid that I’ll get plagiarism. My lecturer started to announce ‘Who didn’t found your assignment please comes and see me tomorrow morning 10.30 am to 11.30 am’. GOSH!!!!!! I can hear my heart beating! Lup dup lup dup! After that my lecturer continues the announcement. Because of the other tutor have some emergency case so she can’t give us back the assignment need to wait until tomorrow. phew~!-.-” She scared me! Why don’t you say it faster? Haha…

I woke up at 9 something. I was dreaming. You know what I dream? I dream I get 8 marks out of 10 marks. That time I was scolding myself day dreaming it is impossible! After brushed my teeth and took bath I went to Commerce Building with Lieng Weng to take my assignment. On the way, I started to think how many marks I can get? I tell Lieng Weng don’t tell me I’ll just get 3 or 4! I’ll faint! At least I want to get 5 out of 10. That ‘Smelly’ Lieng Weng cursed me he said that I’m late to get my assignment so my lecturer will deduct my marks! *HOT!* I starts to scold him! Haha… He surrenders! He say deduct other people marks and add to mine! Haha… Ok! I forgive him!

When I reached there I was unlucky, my lecturer not in her room. Where she go? I thought I was so bad luck! Luckily she came back after few minutes. She asked me to go in her room and she started to search my assignment. She said if I see my name just ask her to stop. The assignment dig one after another. Finally I saw my name! Yes! This one. Haha… Do you know how many marks I get? 8.5! Yea! She took it out and checked. Suddenly she told me “I’m Going to correct your marks now!” OMGGGGGGG! NOOOOOOOOOO! That Lieng Weng “smelly mouth”! *whimper*

She was looking at my referencing. She said again I’m going to correct your marks. Oh No! I’m thinking ‘Don’t tell me my referencing done it wrong again! I already spent a lot of time done that referencing.’ She told me you get half mark on the referencing now I’m going to add another half mark for you because bla bla bla… I was too happy that time. Even my lecturer stand in front of me but I was totally couldn’t hear what she told me. Haha… I was too happy! My dream comes true! Haha… It’s higher than those marks I obtained in the dream! Haha… Okay! I’m stuck! Haha… too high! Don’t know what to write already.

See ya! Muacks! Haha….

Gals pay attention! Don't ever make the wrong decision!

2007-08-28T23:09:00.000+10:00

Nowadays guys were such useless, worthless, heartless...! haiz... really make me breathless & speechless!!! Gals don't ever choose the guy as below.

Let me introduce Mr. A!

He is 32 years old man, still a full time student! He is a very D.I.R.T.Y person!

D = damn

I = immoral

R = rude

T = twerp

Y = yarke

He was a damn shit guy! Never asking permission from others when he used other people belonging unless you saw he was using it. He like to chop in people conversation, the worst thing was he still give his personal comment! Somemore it is NON of His BUSINESS! The things that need his own view then he will just keep his mouth shut. He will hide in the hole if there's one! Such a 'Busybody' GUY! Yet he just take bath either once a week or non! Never change his cloth, wash his cloth just once within half year. Never 'aim' properly when go to toilet! Never wash hands after went to toilet. Like to act like a genius! Come on! Genius won't do comparison with the people who low level than him.

Ok! Why i'm saying he is a yarke? What's that mean? Yarke is an animal. A type of monkey which have a fox tail. Outside look gorgeous, but inside it was just a monkey! Can u get what i'm trying to describe?? Yarke sounds like "yark~!"

This is Yarke picture.

Honestly! Gals choose your Mr Right carefully! Don't ever meet the guy like this!

The 2nd night without Ah Hong (Fair)

2007-08-23T01:09:00.000+10:00

Seem like i had already accepted the truth of Ah Hong left me. Luckily i'm having a test so i need to concentrate on my test if not i can't imagine that what will happen to me. Some more i can chat with ah hong through MSN. hehe... Nowadays science and technology were extremely advanced thus we no need to afraid that we will lose contact unless we don't want to keep in touch with each other. *simper*

No one can replace Ah Hong status in our heart. Like what she said before "THIS IS MY TERRITORY! NO ONE CAN REPLACE IT" I know how do you feel. I can feel it too... I thought I could accept other people but now only i know it is IMPOSSIBLE! From the day ah hong left i'm not used to be nobody sleep beside me. When i lay on my bed ah hong not sleep beside me anymore. It was empty on my right. It was cold! I feel so lonely. Luckily i still have Maa-ree-yah! She was so kind she told me she will sleep with me for 1 month. hehe... So Good! Maria I love U! *big hug + muack~!* :)

The 1st night without Ah Hong (Raining)

2007-08-20T23:25:00.000+10:00

Maybe God knew that I feel very sad and stressed so it is raining now. Why most of the time when we feel sad then must be a rainy day? Is it really God can feel our sadness? Sigh... This is the 1st blog I’m trying to write out my feelings in my life. I know it is very hard for me, but i need to force myself to write it so that i can improve my english by writting blogs.

Finally, the day has come.... Ah Hong already left us....... :( very sad lerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! i couldn't control my tears when she left us. For the past few days, i really have no mood to sudy, i feel very down. The worst thing was my tears come out automatically when i think about Ah Hong is going to leave us. No one to chat with me any more during the late nights, because Maria always go to bed early.

Last night I couldn't sleep well, lay on my bed and feel very hard to breathe, because i know that once i wake up ah hong is going to leave us. Yet, i have no choice i know she will leave me 1 day. i have to accept this BLOODY truth. Although we just knew each other for 6 months but it seem like already 6 years. We had already built up extremely 'deep' friendship.

Today i woke up at 7.30am, i have cooked breakfast for ah hong. This is the last breakfast i prepared for her in 35 Grosvenor St. sigh... :( She double checked the things that she going to bring back home and asked me to donate her cloths that she didn't want to bring back. After checked everything, she took the photo with the lemon tree at our house backyard.

9.15am when we want to take photo with the plum blossom at neighbour house, Clark have reached our home. So we need to move the luggage in the car. When i took ah hong bag my tears automatically fall down even i try very hard to control it. Luckily we got Maria! She was trying to cheer the mood up so she talks many nonsense things. If not i think i will cry non-stop! haha...
I'm so useless...

*ding dong*

can passengers of flight jetstar 702 flying to melbourne please board the plane?

Oh... the time reached... Ah hong want go into the terminal already... when i hug her, my heart felt very painful seem like someone stab me with a knife. Everyone was crying Except CLARK! i'm really feel hard to let her go when i huged her. What to do...? I asked her faster go in the terminal. i know that my tears already not under my control. Finally she 'GONE'..... :(

Don't know why, on the way back i keep crying. Sigh... The funniest thing was when Clark droped Maria to Uni, Maria WARNING me to stop crying. haha... she asked Clark to look after me! haha... I know she was so worried about me. I feel very funny and CURI laugh in my heart because need a 'little gal' worried about me. Although she was smaller than me but her 'action', 'thinking' really like 'Lao Yi'... Maria ah Maria ah... Please act like your actual age! haha...

Ah Hong we will missssssssss you. Hope to see you soon on the January! Our 约定! When the time come please don't try to runaway ah! Don't give us a "BIG AEROPLANE"! haha... Wish you all the best in your working journey and meet your Mr. Right immediately. hehe... No matter where you go, what you do I will give you my fully support. I'll appreciate our friendship although your distance was so far. It will maintain the same. I won't forget the time we hang out together. The miss that can't speak it out from mouth. Do you understand?

I think is time to go. I want to prepare for my "WAR" already! hehe... Bye.........

GRAND OPENING

2007-08-18T00:33:00.000+10:00

WELCOME!!
This is Carmen Tan speaking and i welcome u aboard. Please enjoy yourself and alert me if any assistance is needed.

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Okay i will improve my english by writing this blog. at the same time u guys in penang or wherever can get updated with the things happening to me here.

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*typed by ME - you know who i am*