Geram!!!

Recently I'm looking for job, I think i'm going jobless soon. I need to get a job ASAP! If not i'm going to die!!! My crazy boss told me the same things everyday? you have to give bla bla bla pressure! you have to ask bla bla bla to get new projects! If not our company not going to continue. He told me this thousand times!!!! Please stop telling me all this!! i'm hate to hear all the reasons that you gave us. 1 word! BORE!!!! Can you please take your own responsibility?? If you don't want to fight for the company then who will? The company is yours! not mine!!! i only can to the account for you!!! Please do what you should do instead of keep pushing all the things for other people. Things never come so easy! Don't expect everyone will fight for you without your own endeavour. I'm 100% sure my boss doesn't understand the meaning of "Give and Take"!!! He always want us to "GIVE" and he is the one who always "TAKE"! The most overstep thing was he always paid my colleague which is local people on time instead of my friend and I!!! Damn him!!! When i saw him i still need to smile with him! haiz... This is the different between employer and employees!!! Customers are always RIGHT!!! Boss also always RIGHT!!! i want my SALARY!!!!!! >.<>

My Favourite 100 things

After read Maria and Phyllis blog, I feel the urge to list down my favourite 100 things too. :) But i'm not sure how long i will take to update this. :p will let you know once i finish. now is 11.33am 24/3/2010. Maybe i'll take few days to think. hehe... Same like maria always say me "i take ages to post a blog". hehe...
Here is my favourite 100 things! Don't fall asleep ya when you read! :)
Erm... so hard to think the first one... hehe...

Finally...

1. Swimming
2. Laugh loudly
3. Cook something i like to eat
4. Dreaming
5. Fishing
6. Jogging
7. Movies espeacially horror movie! :D
8. Hang out with friends
9. Doing nothing ( Is this considered 1 of my favourite thing?:p)
10. Eating
11. My Friends 12. My family 13. Appear Offline on MSN (hehe... lazy to chat)
14. Share my experiences with my friends
15. numbers
16. Sunflower
17. White Rose
18. Photography
19. Working
20. Traveling
21. Ice Cream
22. Pillow talks
23. watching people dancing
24. accompanied by friend
25. teasing my best friend :p
26. Call Daphne
27. helping people
28. Fastiduous
29. Penang Laksa
30. Lok Lok
31. Byan's nasi lemak
32. Singing
33. My aunty cookings
34. Soup
35. Banana
36. Go home! hehe...
37. Drive as fast as i can! (only when i'm mad)
38. Go shopping with my best friends in malaysia.
39. Suprises
40. stalking people on facebook
41. always having deep breath while doing homework
42. listen music
43. cheese tart
44. Rojak
45. Steamboat
46. Almond
47. Crabs
48. Prawns
49. Travelling with my sister
50. like to eat something sweet
51. My bed in Malaysia
52. swearing!! hehe... :p
53. look at older photos that revive my memory 54. accompany my mum doing her things
55. helping my mum doing her things always when i hang out with mum
56. being pampered
57. being helpful
58. Penang
59. gossiping with my best friends
60. drive my sister and my best friends around
61. Yustini hehe...
62. Asking questions
63. the past sleepovers with Maria and SinHong
64. Quarrel with my best buddy- DAPHNE my best buddy ever!! :p65. tell Daphne off during her ears feel itchy! haha... ( She likes to make me angry though)
66. Colorful bedsheets
67. The number of 76
68. McD
69. Bacon and Egg70. Sausages
71. neat and tidy
72. being naughty73. Typing
74. Rock Deli's Honey Soy Chips
75. Crunchy Nut
76. Having Funs77. Receiving parcel
78. the smell of raining in Malaysia
79. Penang Prawn Noodle
80. The Wanton Mee near my house
81. Luo Han Guo
82. Milo Ice83. Teh Halia
84. Roti Bawang
85. Nasi Kandar
86. Ice Chocolate
87. loh bak
88. call daphne without talking when i'm sad. ( p/s: she knew that i'm crying) :) Thanks...89. miss my friends and family when I'm in Australia
90. Weekends and Public holidays
91. learn new things
92. Woolies
93. admire of people that i feel they are so clever.
94. My home
95. My room in Malaysia.
96. having a walk with Maria when i'm not happy.
97. Sunny Day
98. Ponteng when during High School :p
99. Chatting with my sister
100. My colorful life

Phew~ @.@ Finally finish! Guess what is the time now? 3.45pm 24/3/2010

Quite fun to work out my favourite 100 things. Actually i didnt spend that much of time to think. No need to work meh? hehe... Bye...

Support and Encourage

Actually i would like to update something more interesting and something that will make people feels happy after reading my blog. Unfortunately, i really don't know how to express my happiness instead of my sadness.

Recently i kept dream of my friends and family in Malaysia. Is this the sign that show me i'm not happy living in Australia? Honestly, I miss home, I miss every things and people in Malaysia. People won't know this kind of feelings if they not away from their own country or home.

I have met Tae yesterday for a chanting session. Actually i was struggling with my negative life state such as relationship, career and financial problems. Thanks Tae giving her support and encourage and also chant together with me (Actually I were desperately need that) . Thanks for everything you did for me. Much appreciate! I really have had a great time yesterday. Now i feel I'm encouraged and supported. I'm looking forward for our 2nd meeting on next Monday.

Is he the one?

Sometimes i really doubt is he the one? I knew no one is perfect even myself. I saw maria wrote in her blog " when you use one finger point to someone four fingers is pointing yourself!" so i started to doubt.... Is it my fault? sigh... :(

Every time quarrel will be my fault! because of my stinginess, arbitrariness, and etc. He always think he's the one conceding whenever there's an argument. Did he know actually I'm the one who always concede? i can continue the argument if i want to! why i want to stop the argument? Why i just kept quite? Because i want this relationship to be lasting! I don't want to argue anymore! I'm so tired! You know sometimes i would rather remain single! Did he know all these? The answer was he didn't know! Anyone can teach me what should i? Am i betraying myself or lying myself or persuading myself that i still love him or it is the truth? i'm so confuse! sigh... :'(

Every time after argue he will tell me "i will change! I will change! Believe me! give me a chance" ok! i believe you!I'll give you a chance. But how long do you want me to give you? 1 yr? 2 yrs? 3 yrs? I understand my personality! i dont have that endurance. I'm not sure how long our relationship will last. Every time argue i'll ask myself are you the one that i will be with forever? If i have time machine i will see who is the one! I'm so tired of being in a relationship. Can i just run away? hehe... Not again!!! ;P